Friday night, May 12, 2006
11.52 pm
It’s nearly midnight up here, I don’t know why but I can’t fall asleep. Although both my body and mind were tired almost exhausted, I just can’t close my eyes. Just like usually when dark comes thru the night many thing comes haunting my mind, struggling in my head, worrying, annoying, sometimes could make me crying. It does humanize if we can’t be relieve when we have a sin just done even if it’s not in purpose, moreover if it did. Anyway there is no end if we talk about sin. Who don’t have any.
Well what I’m thinking of tonight is that…..em.. I’m just wondering what if when I wake up tomorrow I found my self in other’s body, may be it will be a big time luck if the live of the body’s owner were match with what I wish to be mine. All I want, all I need, even what I don’t really need will be served for me anytime. Wherever I step on my foot there will be a place of joy that will give me nothing but pleasure. Haha…how naïve isn’t it.
Well once again it just my thought, nothing to be considered. Just a sudden thing pump up on my mind, it is good to have a dream, as wild as you can. The more you have a dream the more you have a hope and that what makes you alive. The thing is that you must be your self to know what you really want, not what you should want. Sometimes we don’t know that we were just following the other. Like what other like, and slowly lose our self. And when we couldn’t reach they have, we well regret our self and have no confidence to be around which is not healthy for the soul.
So I guest I just need to know who I really am. The real me, with my own smile, my own aim, my own way. That would be my main homework, will I be my self or stuck on influence of the other and keep being a follower….
Bandung, herni(20) no way to sleep, hoping a new light for tomorrow. Brighter and shiner.
11.52 pm
It’s nearly midnight up here, I don’t know why but I can’t fall asleep. Although both my body and mind were tired almost exhausted, I just can’t close my eyes. Just like usually when dark comes thru the night many thing comes haunting my mind, struggling in my head, worrying, annoying, sometimes could make me crying. It does humanize if we can’t be relieve when we have a sin just done even if it’s not in purpose, moreover if it did. Anyway there is no end if we talk about sin. Who don’t have any.
Well what I’m thinking of tonight is that…..em.. I’m just wondering what if when I wake up tomorrow I found my self in other’s body, may be it will be a big time luck if the live of the body’s owner were match with what I wish to be mine. All I want, all I need, even what I don’t really need will be served for me anytime. Wherever I step on my foot there will be a place of joy that will give me nothing but pleasure. Haha…how naïve isn’t it.
Well once again it just my thought, nothing to be considered. Just a sudden thing pump up on my mind, it is good to have a dream, as wild as you can. The more you have a dream the more you have a hope and that what makes you alive. The thing is that you must be your self to know what you really want, not what you should want. Sometimes we don’t know that we were just following the other. Like what other like, and slowly lose our self. And when we couldn’t reach they have, we well regret our self and have no confidence to be around which is not healthy for the soul.
So I guest I just need to know who I really am. The real me, with my own smile, my own aim, my own way. That would be my main homework, will I be my self or stuck on influence of the other and keep being a follower….
Bandung, herni(20) no way to sleep, hoping a new light for tomorrow. Brighter and shiner.
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